The Girl Without a Past

These past few years I've been thinking about my background and how non-existant it is. One of the most embarrassing things for me these days is when I tell people that I'm Cuban(-American), because my parents are from there, they usually ask me if I've been there. The answer is always no, of course. And the thing that bothers me the most is that:

1. Most of the world is unaware that the most (or one of the most) powerful countries in the world has an embargo on Cuba
2. The embargo is serving absolutely no purpose

How the hell does this Mr. President think he is that he can go ahead and basically tell people that they will only get to visit their family members when he says so. I bet if stinky Bush was Cuban-American he'd get to go to the island anytime he wanted- because he's the president. That's not fair because they can obviously only be one president. Now, I'm not so much angered at the fact that I'm not allowed to visit family members because it's been 20+ since my parents had any contact with family members on the island, but that doesn't mean they aren't there. I have grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins there that I've never met before.

The pain truth is that once the embargo is lifted the island will be flooded with Americans and it just won't be the same. Everyone wants a taste of the forbidden fruit. I don't want to go because its forbidden, I want to go because I have no past. I don't know what it means to have the "Cuban" attached to the "American". I would have gone there already if it weren't forbidden, probably dozens of times.

I can't just go around saying I don't know who or what I am for the rest of my life. Did you know that Cuba is so close you can see the lights of Havana from Key West? I've seen them before, I've always wondered what it'd be like to actuall have those lights shinning on my face...and some day soon I will.